So I guess that’s over with…

No real word from Music Mouse since Sunday. I sent him a message mid-week and he replied, but that was it. I have a feeling that whole thing is done now. I get the feeling that he’s feeling guilty. He brought his girlfriend flowers last night (yes, I occasionally look at her Facebook, since she has everything public). Can’t say I’m particularly sad about it. The guy had some pretty twisted fantasies, and ones I was not particularly interested in acting out with him.

In more positive news, Drummer Boy actually responded with a full sentence today. As in subject, verb, and adjective. He hadn’t been online at all since early morning. So I messaged him this afternoon with a cute pic, figuring that when he eventually came online it’d be waiting for him. He replied within about a half hour. I don’t know if it was coincidence or if he saw the notification and came online specifically to reply to me. I like to think it was the latter, though my brain tells me it wasn’t. Either way, it was nice to hear from him with something more than a smiley face…

Crossed a line…

So I crossed the line with Music Mouse today. He kept saying he wanted to send me a dick pic, and I kept reminding him he had a girlfriend. I finally gave in and he sent me four. Plus three videos. And we sort of ended up sexting.

I feel badly about it, but it’s too late now. I told him I was crossing a line that I don’t normally cross. And I told him that I wasn’t crossing it again. Although I’m sure I won’t have the willpower not to, honestly.

And his band is going on tour next month and I was thinking about checking them out when they’re in this area, but I’m not sure if it’s a good idea now. I guess it depends on who else is going.

I sent Drummer Boy a cute picture today, along with a message saying that it was too cute, just like him, and he sent back a smiley face. I think he’ll be back in town some this week. I’m keeping my fingers crossed that I’ll hear from him, but at the same time I’m sure I won’t. Why do I like this guy so much? There’s a big part of me that wishes I could just forget about him, but then an image of us together fifteen years down the road pops into my head. He’s the first guy who’s EVER had that effect on me. And I don’t know if it means anything or not. I just want the chance to hang out with him, just the two of us, and see if there’s anything really there. But I wonder if that’ll ever happen…

I’m waiting a week…

Still no word from Drummer Boy, but I get the feeling he hasn’t been on Facebook much at all since the weekend. Mostly because another friend of his has posted some stuff on his wall and he has yet to like it (he pretty much always likes whatever someone posts on his wall).

I’m going to wait a week, and then send him some kind of cutesy message with some adorable animal photo. I want to make sure he knows I’m still interested. I’m so afraid of backing off completely, because it seems like every time I’ve ever done that, some other chick has swept in and I’ve been pushed out. So I’m not going to do that. I’m going to hope that he’ll message me before the weekend. I’m going to hope that even if he doesn’t, that he’ll bring up hanging out when I do message him. Or at least he’ll reply with actual conversation stuff, and not just a smiley face.

All this hope is going to lead to me getting my heart broken again. But I like him. And I feel like this could lead to something really really good down the line.

In other news, I had a really annoying conversation with a guy I’m going to call Music Mouse from now on. I think I’ve mentioned him before. He’s friends with MSG and Drummer Boy, and Zombie Girl and Super Mom both used to date him. He wants MSG and I to do a video for his band, which will be awesome. Except he keeps sending me really inappropriate messages. Last night he was talking about cleaning out the pics on his computer and how many nudes he had. I told him I had to call it a night and would talk to him later, and put my phone in “do not disturb” mode so I wouldn’t be notified of any further messages from him. I half expected I would wake up to find he’d sent me a dick pic, but he’d just offered to. I didn’t respond. Hopefully he won’t message me again, unless it’s to talk about a video. If he’d sent me a dick pic, I would have told MSG exactly why we wouldn’t have been doing a video for him…